New CT Scan

I had a CT scan on Monday the 13th.  The scan showed two new spots in my right lung and two new spots in my left lung.  My oncologist felt like it would be a good idea to start taking daily chemo pills.  I got a call that said the insurance had okay-ed the pills.  I will be getting them home delivered on Friday.  It has all been quite fast.  I don't think I'm quite mentally prepared.

I shouldn't lose my hair but it may turn white.  The other side effects are tiredness diarrhea  and nausea.  From what I understand, this chemo pill is quite new and it's for sarcomas.  I will go in for labs in August and them for a CT scan in October.

It wasn't the news we were expecting but not totally surprised either.  I've had a 19 month vacation from chemo.  It's been wonderful!  My hair has grown back so I didn't get (looks) any more.  I had days go by that I didn't even think of cancer.  I was just me.  Not the person with cancer.  I new that it was probably going to come back but you are never quite prepared for it.  The thing that's the hardest for me is telling the people I love and care about that it's back.  I hate the worry and sadness that it brings.  Not to mention the cost etc.

We new of two spots already.  I had an ablation in May the biggest one.  I thought that the other one would probably be getting to the size that it would be ready for that procedure.  I wasn't expecting to hear about the two in my left lung.  We will just have to see what happens between now and October.  Ablations could still be an option in the future.

My sweet Dad is really having problems with his memory.  That is becoming more and more of a worry for us.  He has had, what I call, night terrors.  They are really scary!  He was with me on Monday when we met with the doctors.  I don't think he understands what is going on.  That is probably a blessing.

I am so tired tonight but I'm sick to my stomach and can't sleep.  This is probably bothering me more than I think.  I do have a peace about this though which I am so grateful for.

On a more happy note.  Jenny and her five daughters came and stayed with us for five weeks.  It was so much fun having them here.  My Dad just loved having them stay with us.  He especially loved little Isabella.  She has such a sweet spirit and loved being held.  She would smile and sing the song of her people.  Dad and Becca had fun too.  She liked to sit with him and would ask him to take his teeth out.  The house is so quite without them.

Jason graduated from Olympus on June 5th.  That was such a great day.  We are so proud of him.  He really had to work extra hard to make up credits so he could graduate.  He is living with one of his band mates family in Salt Lake.  He just started working in retail selling watches.  He is planning on going to SLCC this fall.

Tracee's daughter, Ruby, was baptised last Saturday.  It was such a great event.  She was so excited and she was so beautiful.  We had a fun get together after.

Ken's mom got a pass maker last week.  I took her to get her hair done today.  She is doing so much better.  It's so fun to be with her.  We go grocery shopping and out to lunch on Wednesday's.  I am so blessed to have such an incredible Mother-in-law.

This summer is just flying by!